ok.. to put it right out there, i feel pretty damn lost right now. i’ve been in something tailspin for months.. between taking on more and more obligations while, at the same time, feeling like i’m struggling to motivate myself.

i’m excited about what i’m doing.. don’t get me wrong. but i can’t help looking around the corner at what might be coming down the road. is it in gis? is it programming? or maybe it’s something entirely different: back to environmental work, writing, medicine, law..? it’s hard to say. it’s as though i’m in the horse latitudes again – no winds are blowing me towards any harbor. i’ve been throwing my sanity overboard just to keep things moving.

in the meantime, i’ve filled up the rest of my weeks with whatever i can: soccer, climbing, drinking, working, volunteering. and suddenly it’s november.

strange day when you realize that you’re running from something.