(last edited about two months ago – left to be one of my incomplete thoughts) i know full well there’s only one thing that can pull you out of a rut: yourself. but that’s why i’m pretty sure i’m screwed for a bit here.

listening to some third eye blind but nothing from the studios right now. this is a bit from “persephone” (think perse-F-owny)..

persephone can you help me?

i pushed away a summer breeze
i want the promise of a real spring
free and born again
help me

old emotions are coming back to me

i sit by myself
memories, all i want
in the last light of the sun

can’t help but think about the bit of a rut that i’m in right now. it’s nothing too serious by any means.. but it’s definitely a rut. the worst part isn’t really even how i feel but how i end up losing the patience and being.. well.. just generally cranky i guess. i’m a lot quicker to lose my patience with people or just be relatively rude.. and that’s not fair at all. not to mention that i’ve been a lot more critical and much less forgiving.

i guess it’s alright, though. this always happens and it always passes. maybe it’s just started a little earlier than usual this year.